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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good.$ h8 p! o4 z4 M- B# S6 E
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我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。8 Q& L+ A! Y( I0 e7 ?+ `) u* B
- l: j' |# T oIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing., p5 v5 S7 T) A% Q
1 H7 o4 R4 b* V% i# @3 n如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。/ l& o; I! B: k
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Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address.0 G2 K$ ?7 p8 I9 l7 K- v$ w
3 M9 K1 M K. ~5 q$ |: [不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。- {0 v* m( [, L7 T! x6 \+ w- ?4 b' I
b- h; f1 \, C$ q. aA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid.' b4 H. `) J6 G& q2 g* G; { X" _
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在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。+ T' X) t2 F6 S9 W; R
4 u+ n4 C, z- MWhen I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. 5 Z8 s3 p7 l2 _7 y4 l4 O1 n ! w0 i- B- ?- T7 J/ {/ \5 w' J当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 - P" {9 d) `$ ]7 \( F. s; F& X* G& Y4 y; h# T- f5 P; W
But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. * T( l5 H4 f0 Q! T+ o1 t( G' Y" c& t) U. P; U
不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。) k4 B2 R- F ~4 `# z
, r% E& A7 u4 c4 v/ Z& [# qThe minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. % | H; L0 k2 H8 x _8 x1 T8 j9 i 8 S/ s/ p8 j! ^# q从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 3 H* |/ M8 S. h2 m* E7 W( d) W5 k) {3 G
You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. . ]' q8 M! [4 j' |) ~& i/ O. ^3 O, T: P- L& p) X3 N
为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 ) @) f1 S9 ~* g* u5 [' Z 7 t! p0 [2 J2 }. {8 T, [2 I/ b4 _You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. . _* A6 G! ]: o* ~9 L/ L - _7 M( ~; o% P" C9 C) _/ U你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。4 Z& I3 w6 s) j0 U5 o3 ^" a4 _
& Q; L+ Z- e0 u1 Z* ]" x1 oHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. . y9 f+ h3 i7 L# a8 M5 ~- [! u) j; f# p F
拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 & T. D9 J) h, `4 [6 Y5 T6 I2 N$ R# Y* |( B; b% x) W* ~
For the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " \: f6 a# q& Y2 X 3 n# m& j7 B0 Q- j不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 5 @2 b/ \! v+ ]* v& V% h! f- @8 T. D) r& `- r" [$ i& x
Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. . [4 w9 o8 v- L5 n) }. ^# I ) y1 ^1 X+ x+ n, W& P* u+ I9 l“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 ' _) S. W5 U9 X }3 m7 j5 V0 I" i; s" `7 p r+ R
Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."( n$ N7 t5 R: H0 k. [+ T! W
% @: O I7 F5 X# C生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。1 P$ z4 h4 [! d4 Y4 P) \) U, E" V