2 I: u" ]2 r+ {& f生命就是小甜饼：( K7 x' e! A& B0 B" Z- i; f
One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good.0 V* I- D3 ]5 n4 U% _2 i
, n8 X7 M& g! g7 N. ^3 c- i% v, n, z我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 5 v: @; ~4 r' ? 8 W8 E/ b8 T0 g. `$ JIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.. n' Q. b/ t, I/ b/ B6 S8 ~3 u
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如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 3 @0 {& {0 P3 s! `' b0 Q) u4 u. F; f+ w& t2 N3 F
Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. 0 z3 W2 l1 G5 ]' \' W6 h* ?* }& g/ `) a* e X
不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 + k. C- L% H2 e/ c" o; `, ~% I, W, ~" I$ L* [
A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. & a6 V! ]% b9 O% l' x* w# }. F8 @ : |' Q- U3 S$ A; _在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。6 W/ n; H' r, B4 U+ h
# M8 L7 b- p) m2 h6 H! B0 hWhen I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy.6 f* p1 @# E' `0 f, d
% S z* `2 [* m5 t/ Q M5 s7 o+ r' H当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 : E0 V0 Y& f# ]2 `, W % _ ?1 V. }: D- k/ X$ ]5 J: dBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. 7 Q* U8 E( H9 D# s+ w. q! \3 N / K5 Z# d* D" l$ x G/ t不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。3 {: h' E$ ^% T, t
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The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you./ E8 Y) ~$ y0 R, ?1 K. v3 F: E
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从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 5 q: j9 t9 A$ w9 v0 y6 y: b* ~6 n" V! h5 n
You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. + a7 [- @+ {+ t U# F+ y3 P+ R. ?2 ]
为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 & H! B# J# f$ M- c+ {1 j ( t4 K4 m9 |! @& rYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it.$ |7 X; i) x5 L' v5 L% c# B
& R4 F- z" V- G F, X' G你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。 & ?" y' h. D' q- f" R2 }) H3 A9 S+ ]0 M1 j5 I$ u
Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him.) U+ Y# v1 k8 h: N* ^1 l# G! [2 A; r
* w& P, I% ?* V! Q拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 : i3 l2 N, r: z; @( V# [6 p5 j7 _: [9 B; p7 M; }9 U" }
For the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " - @3 d7 `2 C9 e+ j2 G, G/ U# R4 R( I4 O% ^" }! R; a, l i# U
不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。, a( G$ J0 F9 } q) `- |9 P8 `; F
- r0 e$ h2 @9 G* c- ]Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. 0 Z0 q3 g7 A+ |2 K; [* j U / p- M1 H, J; ?8 Q7 s& \3 n“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。- E$ E7 q3 ?- F& N! v
5 j+ I2 t( k, ?8 gLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie.", b( K6 t, P" }1 B* N$ @- m
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生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。) x4 }3 U/ c/ A" E P+ v: E