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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. + J# m. O! \% H4 H7 l( v6 u , \ i0 r; \& @. H6 N3 `1 d我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。2 r% Q/ i3 X1 [, V2 i; [* J! y5 ]
2 C; E% y: s$ D" f0 S: UIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.; n' A A8 P) O" e7 y, s
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如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 8 j. I( M. l2 ]+ c+ P" F% M' p' O6 S2 a. j0 S9 j$ g& h/ `
Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. # x6 f3 t" \$ g0 a 4 T% Q0 n, p1 r3 O不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 7 d, Y# s( h. Q7 `. P9 r. Q( x7 R
A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. + v. l- m# Z# w# z- ]1 I 3 P2 Y! _4 t! r2 R在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 ; j2 \' j Z' Y+ g: n3 P# F: _0 c; v# ?% s ~
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. 1 Z0 s* m0 K0 u7 K* v/ H. A I" V8 k 0 H% n, A( M+ { M! f1 J: x当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。! q* I8 f* O! s4 W U5 O3 m. X. F
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But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. ! c' p9 U( C* e9 ]$ q+ v) F6 O7 T % n. E/ Z. A+ E7 X& V9 @不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。: p4 ?3 q- [2 T5 C8 j
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The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. & A3 c2 _% f& ^- k' M 0 O N0 T9 z6 s& ^6 ] r; n* z& r从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。" t; ?1 Y: H1 m/ H6 N
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You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. : q" U" H) j1 R& ?- t$ a ) a# |2 ]) x5 s1 P7 s! s$ r- \$ n为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。1 ], N. Y! s( r R& I: X
7 m, q+ e0 o$ ^6 N$ H; RYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. + I" n6 [) P- b: q3 D 2 e: j! S, P# ^8 K) w% ^, E你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。! L# E$ n1 v q" }& k6 z( I" o
- S. Y+ U' e% i2 d5 GHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. 8 K5 m. H6 |8 F7 s4 O6 \$ m- L, ?7 M% v( Q7 B
拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 " \- X9 `* h# L6 t6 t 2 Y7 Z" r$ p, M0 `' w6 @9 n, }+ ZFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " ( \$ u4 I, p0 }$ J. B" R5 y 4 M& u+ ~7 g2 s不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。$ z- j; y9 U- s' S" g$ L
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Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. - D9 o8 |7 v# T+ Z! z ( A9 z c" P' {+ B# D) h j: }“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。% A* v8 E- t/ P: F( x0 ]
8 Y" c* J" \1 vLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie." 3 {; \8 A s" S- p . h+ P, V# i5 D0 E R5 k- M( g, V生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。+ x' {$ _7 |6 r( s2 ^