# h3 i" T% \) I% t+ ^; C生命就是小甜饼： 6 f% o0 v q5 b: N6 v2 D- p7 LOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good.0 Q" E: ]) H0 |( Y9 a4 o: N
- e; z. r( v! E% u0 O我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 + s V/ @" L; x6 C/ \' O6 N. A$ i7 q# V7 o1 D) s3 _
If you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing." N9 [. s; m1 \7 R
' N0 \# o! z( k! X7 B$ @如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。( ~7 j' ]% ~0 U. R$ l) z( l
3 k$ r( V" _7 \Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address.; R: }" f* q8 Y7 \+ v1 L
! ]0 K5 D5 D: k6 ~A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. % O; s1 [. L9 u% ^ ( T: C6 \; u, P7 L4 [4 \$ {在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 % L7 T7 v2 d9 _# i' H* c: F; l1 F2 _6 C
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy.- Z5 ~$ J* v1 B( r- q" ^ t. W: ?. v6 S
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当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。4 l5 a( h4 A( l
: f& N- i2 Y& J4 \2 bBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. # o! y& e* e- E! p8 J7 a# v9 B2 L; |( n: [+ r2 [0 u- P
不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。1 b S' Z- z4 r+ m/ E
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0 L" H( I% U* ]! O8 S1 S从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。# O1 M' }9 w2 M: e+ N: a
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You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. % h. W! m# Z7 a/ v4 o
! X% \# `4 q7 I: \# s- h为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 + S& O' p$ S- c* n1 Y1 y # p3 K8 D/ y0 @) ~+ TYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. ; t& K) i2 @$ X1 P/ e" w: V' Z. f" o1 X" R `
你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。 " { `9 r* I/ v 2 k P' g e3 B' ^, p3 QHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him.5 @ U# \4 }! t8 Y- |$ h
; ?, ~% A q# ]5 h拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 3 X/ X0 B4 k' C5 e 8 N# {0 @: n" j# P8 g# S2 [0 PFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " $ F; E l9 c& j9 N& ^ s . A/ ]+ j7 ^- |不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 : j" n3 K# R( k; } @" b% x4 K4 {
Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. ; Q! z f- J0 n3 t$ D7 `/ G* F% e" @) R8 ^$ h0 A+ a7 A4 J
“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。" H5 S0 b3 _* a3 v
0 y$ f/ q' s! ZLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."' S! S2 U2 J/ R/ X5 R
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生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。5 x1 o, Y4 Z- Q9 l6 Q+ x. R