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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good.+ X& A! |+ o( U% B, P) n+ g6 u
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我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。0 l5 S4 [! U$ p @# U0 T
" y+ @$ T# L7 e; LIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. 7 z9 y7 o9 s% r# N( y; ] 7 N/ t5 v8 @( h2 p' d如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。9 `& B: b2 [) d0 z* }, s" t9 j9 P' P
p$ _9 W1 \0 @0 p& T/ c7 NSome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. _2 v% v$ X$ _/ P: Y! d9 _1 e0 s8 T* a' Q
不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 " c+ x' x& L5 }! Y# N% w5 L- H / ~0 } n+ Y. D3 z0 d2 |A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. $ v; c& h% q, x8 H. o/ \6 q7 @# h ; Y! d5 {8 T9 r7 ]在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 ! u( {! f9 a, V8 T! I) f' I- J# }% ~ . s# e$ d3 ~0 g! `, eWhen I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. L8 W- K0 {! x/ l4 J 1 n$ p. U& I* a- b. E- b当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。* [! y2 V9 j/ N6 _- j* [
/ l& } s v$ I s, ~# p% G) TBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. 4 e1 i, x2 {+ U- M # q, w& {( o$ g2 V/ H# h不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 % H- g# S2 C- a& D0 _( @- D$ V# e6 f4 B. T0 x6 i( {
The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. 2 |" n0 i T8 d9 j" y7 Q4 u) i9 T% {" S& v5 b3 p2 J
从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。& L5 m) T8 }* n! I1 P
8 l$ a( `5 A# l! b% W" sYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 0 l4 ~% {) i9 X# O6 y$ V8 @% J/ k0 {% u
为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。5 R' P/ F% C2 c! x" \
" i6 [, M/ _+ Q3 W% cYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it.( H6 A) g; w$ J4 g4 n
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你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。 # H# g# ~6 m( J& d: \5 u7 A( l9 f5 |' l6 C n- ?
Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. P- n4 F, m( c" m6 {' ~ , G/ Y' ~/ M- K; u6 H2 {. \拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 1 Q+ q$ F; ]+ z : p$ r7 s* c$ r/ \, @For the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " ( B( N& S$ c! x! t6 C! f7 o5 e7 J; O6 z/ m4 e
不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。1 q2 X$ ^! T" a! o
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Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important.' ~* V1 x0 d( l: U w4 I6 O, W
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“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。8 K- N6 m% y+ a8 D8 K; k2 s1 y
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Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie." 3 x G! F5 ~) M; Q' R 6 `7 u+ k4 K# b, X" ^生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。3 V6 W, y# h6 H; F