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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. 5 Y) f M% P1 _$ ^9 j- Z; ~8 T. _0 c$ _4 o: X& d9 E0 S* _
我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。) F q+ }, v5 C) J% t2 X8 [
6 p" p8 w' ]$ ~! ^1 O( nIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.9 a* U" G7 Z/ [0 x
; O4 @. l% Y' s) ~0 |如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 - w5 o: b1 c5 A) q2 l* i , Q) t& e* x, ~( h' ESome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. / t2 L b$ ^; i9 @6 S; u" t9 }7 r8 m9 X0 G7 Q& _2 W' w2 O- p) E
不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。. |8 ] |! n, Q- I4 U
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A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid.# {" U! ^: y, ~; A% `
. F$ X4 b" H" p2 Z1 O" Q在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 ( N% e, Z- ]8 |3 Y* n; |( m! \2 d. b
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy.6 v7 C+ q- d+ [" f) @8 Y
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当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 ' H1 b7 ]- ]; K0 Z+ V: M0 L" I& C4 ^7 x5 e& A. v1 | ^: x1 x
But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.+ k4 i$ N# j. [9 t
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不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 , ~# ?% \- O4 I f4 w3 z+ l4 ]. l: |4 f) F' g5 z/ A
The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you.% O8 E* f0 U' Q( ]# j8 ]
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从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 ]$ n/ S# V' Q8 t3 x+ R' |5 X& ]# g3 B8 T& B0 z
You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 3 D& P5 w1 @2 i" Y- a- v! o) k , |) D7 J. l6 U+ I- Y% W% [ x( d8 @( _为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 3 S/ ~2 [6 l# H# V% `9 l8 A) X$ \+ d2 q" z1 t$ w9 ~
You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it.* O# J5 |/ f4 }3 p; o. E4 Y
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你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。% H4 v+ |& P$ {* i4 H* X
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Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him.2 Q& j0 O7 J- Q
% x/ S* C" L/ w( q B拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 0 U2 b; r. ^* w- x, X* s# g4 b; o! a( C- p7 b! r
For the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " ' ^3 e* @8 i' o( g& q + }2 B' J& Z* a2 } v1 H n不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。1 B- r7 U' z: C) y4 L6 h% I
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Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. 0 o7 z! i' b. K 0 \% n& _4 G3 p“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。2 I6 @8 Q2 o+ a: o, G6 p) e
$ C O9 R* K* r z, uLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."* N! J- x* ~3 h
4 A) i+ u- I# C* L: O8 h% j生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。9 H9 A) D' U/ m8 L8 p