. p# s! L) Y* m: C8 [ ~: c生命就是小甜饼： $ W+ J0 e7 ], ?# f, `: x8 JOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good., j( U m( `" a' W+ E% |
3 x1 j/ C+ D% ~9 ~0 p4 n1 _' D0 e我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 + y- s: ?9 h# r/ @% j( G " r* V* P8 Z6 o, J* v, ^If you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.' ^" u# L9 W- T: o: }
9 X# g1 E H4 a* a, b% M0 o5 d, W如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。( B& w! Q2 F+ x# n( g% F$ W1 ?5 B
?0 ]' }5 ~% J6 fSome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. 7 d& R* c6 L4 d" I6 U$ G 7 ]# Y7 e" ?6 C( ~( l' j9 ^0 m不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 1 Z/ T9 P5 S. t/ ` q& `& g 4 J. v0 w- b& cA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. n6 ?, F: ^1 s9 I
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在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。- k1 z1 z u5 N. d
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When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. 9 x. u7 b6 Q; [. J8 {; f+ b0 {; @' k; G3 e: w2 m/ {0 G
当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。3 Q* m7 a9 Z% Q) }+ k. M$ L7 n* J
5 p6 O4 E, v% D2 |1 C4 RBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.6 U" ~5 {) a" M# e9 `. O
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不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 # Z5 F6 l" k/ W4 _' F6 Y! z' N9 X N) m3 r6 Z
The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you.& r6 q/ D+ R, R0 o& o1 B* e
, I/ G E5 |% g; C- b从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 " j, s# g; K7 E/ u( }( i: E) Z# Y
You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 6 v8 ?0 D, f+ p: Z# U) u K1 D
& w7 [: M1 b' L6 o7 M/ E B为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 - G0 U& z% V( q/ _! f- B2 S* c" P- G! m# M+ U- `3 U! H
You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. w- l# l; a5 p( _& @ Z% a: B& \+ O4 N# _, k- |# g; U
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拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。7 @* B2 w7 f- l% B
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For the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " ) ?- N* C2 g$ I* _( i# M # i1 |" j( _' i不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 - _" i( F: x0 U) K" j+ p c y8 R9 m. x O3 \- h( b
Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important.# k( U) u/ H/ Q- }& u2 e
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“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 1 d4 L9 Y+ m5 N9 O9 ]6 F _" `3 V" V) t. g2 u2 s. h9 j
Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie.": k) @5 {* ~. J2 ]
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生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。0 P# L8 d6 s$ C# M* w' u