5 t c2 t* Z; I: `$ s" @8 m生命就是小甜饼： ; v0 ^: [9 ^5 Q3 aOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. ! D8 b: L. D1 { e& q4 q1 \; {0 s& E* z
我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 * A9 T, z/ y0 Z* A) g5 ]0 N i" l0 A, r& I1 I* x
If you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.; O- C+ E0 ?. M, i
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如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 3 B/ C$ p6 G b & b9 `% k( ]0 R# N, U) M0 j' _Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address.$ ^& _. M1 S' S9 e) y$ c6 K( Y
5 t5 O1 ?+ O; t% k, J不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。/ m" B9 @, g. [+ V/ o0 L
' i% A$ U1 T" N, N" Q- cA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. * t, U8 r" J: \; v1 g% A* ]4 q0 E0 U5 J* I5 z
在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 * U/ ]* u' w7 i4 k, o L: v: ~) F3 u6 ~
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. , F' P: a) I# G3 Q 3 O* u F2 w/ w当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。0 C Z7 ~% Y, }
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But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.$ W9 @7 E( Z. r
t+ V( O p* }2 T( h+ F$ q6 M4 i5 U8 Y不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 " m1 N8 B. H" D, k , w6 q b( Q1 L8 ]$ L. @8 f0 ~4 D4 g' MThe minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. 3 G" B9 d$ P1 {9 Y8 x: q# Z6 d2 g* F( _1 o! H3 v. K
从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。5 F8 q, p% N3 r% Z7 g
- u3 T5 w3 M# R5 W8 dYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 0 n5 ^( Y7 V A4 K! N* ?2 R
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为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 ( z& c( v. F9 {2 L2 {& e1 H) N" S ; O% A4 J, U- U3 @3 MYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it.2 A1 V' ]4 z, m) i
0 l+ m7 a) v8 ]+ t$ n* k) Q你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。4 w# T/ l0 U s# T; a
$ F$ ~( B0 L" ?: N' IHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him." x7 l$ `) x# p) Q! p- i
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拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 : I1 Y; a/ r9 Y) b5 m# k+ \ 5 B# Y; t4 n/ |8 WFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. ". r* N6 b9 ?0 N: |4 a6 j0 t
8 W( n9 q# I y4 h. m% i D& n% ^不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 z1 l d0 a9 ?* y7 g! a0 K, d: v: }: V Z+ K) i* D& o# J+ w
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Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie." i6 W$ w& _+ `1 ]* k( ^7 M; s