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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. ; u. z2 J$ y Y% W- R' O% L 5 J8 F9 N* V ]) i$ W' [ O; V+ m我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。% R8 n& b7 x& ]6 y$ T! O6 | D1 Z
+ ]- K5 P# C0 G* o" {If you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. + c, q, x* a, \9 R5 ]5 ] # i+ h# W3 _% s% {! F4 A: W6 ]. }如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 / P; \& t1 X. i/ G, V1 C7 }- E8 Z! r* S0 j
Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address.8 p. S9 d+ q& @5 }( T0 v, m
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不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。+ F9 \" v1 Y4 Q0 g- K' n4 N+ I
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A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid.5 z9 v. M# I5 R9 x1 `; v- x$ h
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在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 6 T; Q2 m2 g5 h3 O) s' S/ M6 `% B+ N9 S$ t. m
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. * t$ o7 D0 k1 L2 r2 o) s 8 @7 b. J3 h5 \3 t1 `0 i当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。2 U3 j# J' i2 @& C
) d* G- t4 X+ h( o sBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. 5 w4 I, X9 k3 z+ P H/ P1 m, s0 h% v: D. W
不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。& p, F, K9 }' x# n$ ?! h Q- ?
5 M/ L6 z4 O9 D, @0 e6 D6 JThe minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. a- x6 Z/ a( A3 Y
' h! h+ K% @, c. }& P从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。' F3 j/ ?: X! N r- _9 T/ ^9 [
( \6 R* r2 L) h/ Q) y4 q+ _6 [You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. ' u) Q. f* Y7 F1 H# P6 x, h
# ? h6 ? Q2 \" f+ X7 C为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 1 ?$ \5 K! B9 I' Z$ i# J; U' H1 C+ b ( w p; E. G( R+ WYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. ; ^4 D; \, |% |; d) E# ^( f& o5 M% s& q& c/ L" v2 g9 r- S
你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。 5 F+ N" Z. x6 z) Z; U; t1 Z6 T5 @$ S6 L7 s! {" [9 K$ U* L8 ~0 y7 }
Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. M% L+ y, Q0 s$ x5 `5 e4 f2 O; }) N; ]
5 ?# R$ S! o$ Y0 y, b4 PFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. "5 c1 l# P; B" `& c) \/ o
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不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。0 Q; l, \! j1 j/ Y# C5 l# N
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Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important., L7 V/ g( {0 m5 _! {6 u, O! M# w
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“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。8 {' `- N; G2 c9 `5 R1 ?
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Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie." ' m; n' F/ L$ i* z- Z& u6 ~* y# ^' i8 d( s) q& z! u
生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。8 Q- f& ~ A9 R