" B& U3 J, ^* P& p, V, @生命就是小甜饼： 7 ?1 g; q; C! G* I5 r: wOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. + G' m6 x# J* O* N$ O8 \. Q+ D " G8 F7 O M1 y( g6 E: [$ i我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。4 k) }; b" a, c. K/ p B1 X- X- i; {
. _: R) M: n) N gIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. 1 Z3 Z% I" A m: b* b$ A2 D 3 a4 _6 m; l) u H( A如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。4 [$ x# i( Q0 v* K
" s) d! J+ Z) _7 G& K) USome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. " G& ~9 S* R% s0 _7 r9 J1 v, q) h1 I& I+ y. ]0 Z) }! y/ H1 ?
不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 R: f5 h2 b2 k+ P
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A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid.$ d2 u) \- W; d7 k7 K' D- g
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在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 9 ]' v( g* _( @; W* Z2 m6 Y- W# ]2 r7 l- k8 g' p
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. * {6 }- G" L$ D0 P" A! A5 p3 _# W5 X3 N) t/ ~
当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 # [7 R. }& m r# ? ) d1 {, F5 Q3 u, F% [But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long." U+ I1 D4 f) s) X' j/ G6 M% e
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不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 + i+ N* e+ o/ F2 F2 Q$ m. p1 K2 @9 w 3 |+ u6 z5 T! }( [. q0 |The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. 7 T- B% i# x$ j7 T8 N S ( I1 z1 ]* b5 p" v) _- Q从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。5 ~( v7 R3 h1 B$ G
2 I5 g7 ~3 h+ A; W. MYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. $ E, a* A' Y3 k& ]
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为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。) [' c% X. Z9 W* t G2 J; K) v
7 r* K! R. _$ Y: SYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. ( F l) }0 R0 | l * v$ w" ~5 T" ~4 B* `# a你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。0 s, J% l f8 S8 g; F. V
5 Y6 Q& I5 R) j/ hHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. ) s3 k9 ?6 [ W9 h- V& W y6 ^0 @) s4 j1 N$ ~: q" ^8 T3 i
拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 ; p( D8 f1 d! n& N- _8 D ! d9 s* H1 H* AFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " 9 Z( C( v# ?/ |) O* }8 X$ K 2 |2 `6 [7 Y$ v* ?不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。" t J9 a5 R, `/ R1 W% q" K
; b6 y4 e, [" _, ~7 e5 \! R/ eTwo years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important., @1 s u1 c- o# m
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“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 " x' I- n$ u" _ $ U, Y8 m# q' a" w4 u5 G- KLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."5 c. E" u5 f& d* s$ U) J
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生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。9 b9 n& l2 z8 ?: b