, z+ |0 \9 J& D7 o3 o0 u( u生命就是小甜饼： 7 p. ^- g; t6 |2 f4 x7 FOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. * a' b9 ?. C7 Y# m! K 7 R" j) F, }6 J4 G3 M& u2 Y( w我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 & d. D! g% m2 n6 b. N o) L, {4 ^. i / \$ G5 Y) ?( [; O) \% h$ YIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. ^0 m' g( l: B9 [5 _/ d3 I% |1 M( ^) m
$ X$ Z& N: n5 h5 f3 @如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。* ^1 g# Z$ ]' h) |# v" E
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Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. : k1 A- d0 n s5 D) j; C# V9 }+ f" W- \0 L/ L1 n5 q+ E
不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。* r3 G( L! R& I2 }) B5 \
. @8 O" H0 @5 T6 H# v" jA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid.0 A; q, R+ }: p' e8 m8 S8 t
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在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 - \5 B( T7 _' ?* r# o4 ~) d! ? 1 x P/ {! I3 {% J" h. ZWhen I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. . K X8 N" ^, w/ h9 S9 D0 [/ a% ]3 n' N Y+ i
当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。$ a. V. [8 L! ?
+ s1 Q ^' G+ ~4 ]/ sBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.5 X4 a3 H4 h5 Y
- l* y7 K- U2 \1 ]4 {8 U" i( W不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 5 `$ u/ q+ e7 I) i 3 d) _ |: n. PThe minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you., o* \! y3 P( ]6 y; D% G3 T
4 k5 {* v( K) H6 Q& J& s从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。5 U5 D, X0 Z W* d
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You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 5 a) Y/ e' z, g1 E2 Q/ G, @( _+ ]1 F; P* t' E7 L, X
为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。( S9 P' D0 E V# P; B
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Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. 1 @3 V( a' d; ^, Q. f / K* c9 r$ }! t( P拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。% B' Z/ g) o( W0 l! H4 U
4 x- A& D& K3 @. X- BFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " 5 K1 r2 P3 I) \3 a' I: V) }4 Z4 s+ e' Q9 i% g c5 J. @. y
不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 ' j! t2 M/ J t0 z& g' x- p8 E$ m5 f! G; u4 Y/ n2 o) t) M7 p
Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. * e9 x% M: _, W. U8 T1 ]# h& F1 w V4 l- Y' T# n2 S
“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 / D. w$ f7 i" n, m( N' m/ u+ I& m# o+ \) W# g
Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie." & v8 @! z( n7 p4 h $ u% n5 }" f2 v2 X& C生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。1 V; i8 [1 { ^% z/ {