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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good." ~" b3 ?4 V7 y" m( D5 A. Y( Q# \6 Z+ W
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我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 * m5 ?$ k2 L( N3 r p 1 a0 y8 l2 e% v* VIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.' w, {* K( d, W8 F y; T
5 x) h9 T" ?+ ^( {1 R# G8 d. ]Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address.; ^; j0 E5 p6 ~( g. w. E
1 H& v9 D: M; t. V6 k不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。) `( Z$ z) u- e G$ g
8 D3 N3 V( m# S/ D# [% Z# V( RA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid.# q# n& X& J2 z8 |6 m& _; k$ t
, d2 m* @& g& i! b在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 + Y3 A. @/ L# e" A6 {" m% @% y- |; o( o3 G( q2 \( m% O" B
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. ( @. }" ?/ q/ S# B9 {/ }4 H , J8 e8 }3 v# ~2 r! R2 z7 p2 G6 R# q当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 4 f6 D3 ?' |* U7 b0 I) \ % V9 N% h. m( S+ k& p2 l' ]But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.3 K% l) m9 ?: }2 d3 E9 f
0 ?* u. @. V3 [* x1 u不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 7 p) ~ S& j2 Q& r9 ?/ z. v0 @2 @5 f" [ f5 Q. t; i1 g
The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you., ^ n+ B- h' ~
6 s3 n, A, X! P% u5 j: F# l0 t从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 % X% D4 o/ l! Y; N2 q5 |) Z1 Z3 y% n- ]9 C2 n2 ~7 I" I0 M, E' _2 T. v
You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 5 B, J3 o& z: T$ {2 n' c
, S6 x* n a/ x5 S6 y$ Z) q1 J为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。( ` A4 I9 r- [0 \# S% U2 v+ Z
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You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. 4 G: C5 Q8 W% f' e - ]$ E M# I- T ]$ T* [ h! E- C你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。: s7 y. T* W$ ?2 K T3 n
9 O9 D, D" _; Y" L+ Y; `# C3 l8 WHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. + M2 D9 f6 p* F5 x4 F . a* G; M( J4 B. |( `5 }拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。" d) U- l- _) a) g& K1 [
1 c' y( F& y2 Z0 c2 Z( X. l2 K* yFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " k+ y0 o: X% w' R% [( U3 g; ~9 z! y
不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 ' X# [ S! h, z* C( Z; f 5 l2 r- d" L* q# r2 w3 q2 F7 w% J" OTwo years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. - B5 m& W& a3 O9 F/ ? 6 [& H& y; `+ j# y: B( k“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。+ `( ]% S" T) r% q: @
P$ P# P, \1 H0 yLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie." 9 e) M% U$ @+ W8 ^- W4 Q$ @/ T% x6 U N1 U: _3 I+ D
生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。* U! m% }2 l K* @