0 P9 n6 n2 {" @2 B: g4 A' ]" I生命就是小甜饼： - O$ h% ~. y4 ZOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. & t0 [& @( F3 \) P8 o & Z% |* C) R _( g我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。, ^) o9 E' G/ Q, r
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If you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. + p& ?% u' d( C8 v1 i: J: u$ a0 J" B; j- f) D3 K
如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 5 t% a/ S s! a 4 s* R5 @, N" Z& D1 A& jSome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. % k- ]( c/ P: G- a+ z2 V - e3 A" Z& [2 H% d2 m' [- G不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 + ~2 ^% X" j( s) m% ~& f & I/ P4 [/ l- }9 a; G- {0 MA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. * O3 @+ J! f5 C, N( y* D: _8 ]8 ~& j) c( |4 `
在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。: x7 N3 R- d! f+ |: X
" T$ ]+ B) Z; ~4 G( X( [When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy./ Q5 J t& R( g& J# ]1 H3 L, U8 S0 {4 B, l
: t' V% F9 o8 D: f( M7 M ^8 U当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。+ x: r$ ] ^# H* G% P
' W$ K; J& q: q+ |+ JBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.$ V" b4 c2 y" |6 O
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不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。2 q3 m6 X: z; T) P7 e
% L+ i( d0 ~* ?/ _ K1 n- wThe minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you.% ?) a# J# m+ Y" P3 R$ a) I
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从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 ( W% S) Y9 W( h+ v9 r. I( ?! a9 R# G7 l# g) M7 L/ ~5 d5 `
You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. O$ X7 w# l5 P 0 W) _- }: Q/ e* B2 b, n为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 * j% W+ A9 k6 s7 ?; I0 k4 n: [! R8 ?6 j1 f% |# e
You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. / f* E! D$ ~8 ?0 D% @6 N8 j+ ]7 G' _; ~) x& O
你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。 9 [, Z0 y8 P% V% F0 l / y# C6 A# c0 b; v0 J. T+ \' y* eHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. n& `+ }% v- T
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拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。+ L- I8 h# l0 l, a4 B
M5 a/ R! _6 \1 N/ A) r$ }, fFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. "4 P+ S+ R8 d F$ J5 E+ T
0 w, {/ `- f! i {不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 $ Y: E `8 s8 |8 v* P; S. ^1 E % s- z2 U+ t. c. k$ pTwo years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important.. n1 e8 l, `% X$ y1 y' J
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“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。! g: m; U8 W; V# B: r1 s' u2 M2 X
" J( [& x* J3 p& _, A2 c2 Z/ CLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie.". N" |# x; ]8 `3 }! m5 y/ w4 Q
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生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。% c5 W: q3 X+ [