& ?. s L7 c7 R- n, ^" ^, r$ I生命就是小甜饼： / {4 ^7 K! P6 yOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good.5 ?4 n+ C+ L y: s6 ^ s2 F
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我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 8 J" S a3 Y. d 2 z' v. u+ ^7 e" }$ o5 a* aIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. 7 o' [4 D2 Z6 R* Z2 U# r' p- J & `7 g* | T4 ]' I8 Q0 X/ s如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。5 j$ ~# c& A' w4 o, }/ S
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Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. & F# C. Y& Y2 X% W- m+ X! x& }2 i( g- j3 `
不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。8 j6 ^6 k1 H8 f7 f$ f" \' d
, o& x% Z7 v# v, j0 ~0 WA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. 9 A1 f W; e: m0 W; E6 I1 w 2 h' e: }1 S2 u4 `在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。/ {) p* Q# y7 t u
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When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. # y. F! l; E* Q/ W% u; N- L1 X# L4 j s, t* z, w4 H
当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。& b4 {2 a8 H @) W; q: A9 W
1 }' z# E" d* d* P6 J9 q: UBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. ! R5 l' I1 n" S: q, G4 t B9 A, {- {* }* ^8 Y
不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。5 Y! N# @2 l' J. ~! `8 T/ ]
1 b) D6 K! t* W" C" a0 {The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. 3 u: T' M0 V& a$ p. \' k+ U- I 5 O9 |6 A1 @" K8 Z1 [& ?从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 ' d) Q7 M8 Q6 m, K) }1 o ! M+ t3 i" Z* C: H1 C5 rYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. : R2 q3 C' A* ^+ a+ t , t" }# c. u1 J, |' T& C' n为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。2 h( o! J2 P9 d! J
) @; K, t& ~2 Z) [9 B0 |You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. " y; E1 M$ l0 R. u& x7 V k+ e0 G& I1 x; w; C
你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。0 f- ]2 P( o/ s' f& J2 s* h: J6 y8 _
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Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. # h$ ?( G4 `( P# W: K1 q0 @$ J u$ F a; I) c( A$ m
拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。+ A. r: K) N( O' ?
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+ h- Y1 D4 D$ Q Z: b6 s& a0 |( aTwo years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. , z0 b; n4 y {4 w * e' @. z2 O* Y* c0 Y9 a& y6 @“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 4 z$ t9 G$ @1 a$ G0 @! n5 q( g# b' H. g) d3 Y3 U8 @
Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."! x w9 I* C- Q, ?7 m2 T
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生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。- ]7 O, B! Z" P. j' X