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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good.* O$ `8 L2 [2 ~3 Z
' h2 y B: A$ u' z; [: Y! S我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。9 ?2 @' Y" d3 V# N! Y& H% Y
1 B8 S0 C1 g" D, D4 ~( KIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.) K1 [' ]9 {- \+ \0 \8 v
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如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。6 a6 t+ L0 Q( C1 h
, b+ E! a5 n/ j# `, lSome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address.% m6 a- E _) R1 s, C& w6 c" ^
" o6 Z( J# x* z+ S) o# @0 M5 f1 R/ w不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。& x; I: F* P3 O+ E
3 E J( E6 }* U' dA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid.) d G/ Z8 ~# v) r& K, W
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在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 ! q5 n$ Z9 _8 e. Y8 k$ e! g) X+ u% n. S. G1 p' V* n# _
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. $ Q3 ` E$ K/ T p% I0 m9 \ O$ `4 _
当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 3 ?! B) Q, I* O5 i& [+ T : ]9 V6 u' {$ X6 h- mBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.! _, J: v: B( c, X5 j
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不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。& F" x! Y) E" W( v3 f2 r" D
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The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you.; L, Q# `! P: U+ X F
4 } T, D+ p) \5 q, V从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 " d5 s1 r- |2 {7 ` 1 z/ y9 W! \5 \( |9 L, @6 I& eYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. $ \1 @/ z+ {" Q
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为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 3 M' Q6 R' u# d# T: O - Q2 O5 M6 c) P5 Z0 `You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. 2 I+ E# y1 y; @/ h+ ?- G$ [' |& ?$ D8 n0 c
你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。2 K9 @, f5 l, [5 s7 h
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Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him., [3 j# d \! I' H
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拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。+ K A- A2 A, ]2 D4 T, L/ j: \# q+ g+ Z
9 L6 n4 e6 A* n0 O; [+ BFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " 0 X9 T* U) O9 C2 [. p4 m: R3 f( ]
不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 6 ?6 P3 m; F. K! _: r* e g1 C* u6 p$ x/ W# K
Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important.( e% }% s' }% I& F5 N# o3 v
) [, b' a5 O2 @7 \# V6 [Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie." : H+ }5 y ~4 c/ J* m9 Z: w6 }0 d% e) y2 S8 K
生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。0 h, T1 w( A9 @. \" U- A