5 W5 r7 ]( j( M生命就是小甜饼： + g$ e& o1 C1 o* q% D% aOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. 1 k( v8 b- \6 _& E+ B, ]) u/ y3 U" n. M$ @ i |3 q+ a
我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 ! G0 t+ [7 Q4 b 5 _( Q9 B4 }5 K) UIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. : G6 P$ A: H. O5 d" u 6 M, z" P2 p3 u) H! c2 r: k7 u( c如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。, [5 T+ ]! ^3 J, C4 `+ |
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Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. 8 R- \. H$ y t/ j) c; S- _/ A . y$ Z6 A8 a& c& P, T1 K$ y- c不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 ' v. e- o$ J. B& D. s/ h: @0 W, |& R- n; Q5 M. o+ w% s- W
A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. + {; d* }9 ?; U q- |+ ] : F& P! c: K. D! V- s* Q# x+ H9 k在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。5 f/ W: N% M2 n! r( X+ j: k" c7 v
x* k6 }- z a ]When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. & N' }& N+ X3 f, a' r: K6 f& p& ]7 ]- Y" b1 h/ N( x
当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 . P) y# Y. B8 T2 F. o ( n3 @- L4 l9 z& `* p4 sBut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. ) e8 u- Q/ `2 D9 D6 ]) ^& v% B+ v7 R
不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。8 I# }# G% r8 ^+ }$ F$ y- Y/ d
# O8 l! }, o' T% S" B! I5 g6 }The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. 4 F2 q, f% `% T1 m* i& [& r! E# @5 \& B. R- ?" ?
从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。- }8 ? q/ @# g1 e, c6 `
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You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 2 @; e' [: C, d7 H! h" Q/ X o4 C8 w2 ~/ @4 J5 U
为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 0 Q4 X% g2 v1 j9 y1 A" ^: G) n6 T1 F# A* A! H' O- A& i3 a
You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. . V. H/ e" D( ?8 ^% P$ f: z# h 2 N; }" |& P: p' n你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。 : x2 F8 X6 V$ z . z9 {& i+ q" WHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him.- s: G ?# n+ e9 R" T6 [# T
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拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 2 O' g3 f4 l2 M1 N& S 5 m! ~! k; M, M5 ?0 r# wFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " ) ^+ i0 j5 ]& J" f' E! K , x7 @1 n2 k7 c: f. _不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。, k# D$ Z5 z- Q) t) q& D
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Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. + D6 y! `, j( A: I& }" a 7 z& B* @: W+ ] [9 @; q“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。7 z& _' }& j2 ?- z* t4 X; b$ V
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Life. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."5 X' b, O0 L- V0 i