3 F' f r* `, S! t8 a& j生命就是小甜饼： 5 H+ ~, o' x* e' e# o8 O2 Y2 O5 ROne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good.0 ^' I7 g. t. s8 y0 H7 W
9 @4 N, I6 U/ J0 p我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 . H% {8 A- e5 B2 C1 Z2 o3 T4 \% X' ~ # v+ p9 J0 [$ K0 |( f4 ]. ^! MIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. # c4 t2 \9 t. f( q) I7 y* c" r, J, A! {0 ~6 k6 A
如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。/ b/ D& ^, p- t4 g- ^8 w
6 ~9 }) |" p! f3 r7 q$ nSome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. P5 H2 N. I; J& ^) D o5 I8 x2 F; K8 l4 \2 `
不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。$ O+ u( _2 G& [* K4 D
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A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. 3 K `* _" \& i4 p% H/ U" J: _# H$ F- E
在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 & k* w1 c1 j* D R4 ^- w/ N: s/ f( \- m7 Q* K
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. # L! r; x+ u6 X $ l& h0 R3 o) q9 \当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 2 r8 ~" k. G) B/ i6 c7 B3 j. m& j1 C1 f+ B
But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. 3 `: s, M L$ Z8 Y% q" o 5 D8 o/ f( [. h, z& Z不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 M& s: N. R$ d$ T" t1 E1 {3 E! N3 b ) O9 f" f k' Z6 `' m1 hThe minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you., y0 F2 W+ l, j
, Z- |; l6 s( j7 q' J2 W& l7 Y从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 7 |$ Y# k$ W* N8 G - V7 j7 t4 |% l6 t h( @You know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 0 _7 |, L$ r- a8 s! }' }8 a. f; S7 ]9 E4 U9 k& j4 k$ N t
为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 }: U w( l+ ~6 V7 i! X% j, k9 ?4 \
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You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. 2 j( R4 }& Y% X& N( ^ ^* {2 k9 A) V 1 m% o' v5 v) z$ A你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。 * b: r1 m0 N8 B) f7 a , P$ I4 C3 K. LHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him.! ~/ ^9 ^5 M6 e* M& J( b
, O: a5 q+ {: N0 F g# ^For the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " : v- j0 a1 d. D8 n $ x: \# J7 K- a不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 / T% R9 _# d/ B z5 {- c + ^- |1 j6 K. }Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important." Z& d- z4 \, K
: r0 y% [1 V! `2 Y. H. _! s8 g7 b“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 9 o6 R# t+ D2 K l5 l& m& c1 k - a( Z& O; s1 ^+ }) Z! n% T' yLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."( h- ]9 e) |, }- R9 X" z
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生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。: _5 c" d" F: x5 Z