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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. # F4 J# k! L7 A: U* u3 b. D. j8 D/ t1 k2 S: m5 @* e) L
我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 & e1 T) O+ v% w }5 V/ h J8 E/ N: a5 @0 _% E. TIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.% Z, V! t1 x& c* S w
( a$ P0 E3 z. Q如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 1 X4 [4 ]5 r( P X 6 \- E6 j' B, u4 C& q& Z0 sSome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. 1 y7 K x/ ~& d3 v5 Q6 C 6 Z- d+ C' E8 R) W. H! @不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 4 i* ?2 u# ^5 r$ k# m4 C* @2 Q) h3 _
A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. E3 f- z, P- e4 K
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在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 5 {) Q4 T: M- Z u4 g8 N % }6 _0 D5 { z' c0 qWhen I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy.: c1 m9 E L- X' ]
# u0 L0 o8 g$ o8 K b当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。3 Q" L0 ~, K: C
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But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. : D- f/ e5 s: s) G) j( M& S9 F3 o" m7 X$ ]
不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 ' |$ h6 O7 o, |3 J( I 2 s( S8 A$ L8 E, S! D- ~; Z P0 kThe minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. * N8 c# W4 J5 Z! B' U% S5 J. p2 L: s9 {8 k
从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。5 s U( `6 v6 g- g! B7 e2 S* m$ S
: k$ E9 i5 ^5 i4 ~! a# M& DYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. . {8 _5 Z- _2 `, u
5 x# @3 u6 D" h9 j& `- l9 [为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。) C8 T" l$ o) o2 X. p3 x& V
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You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. / u5 A: d$ `4 D8 K - E: X* n- ~( M2 F3 Y你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。5 Z# G# V# I. l s, w, }+ Z
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Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. 3 U2 B9 b @& v' k3 ^' N" z7 J8 a! h4 d; Z
拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。% ^% G/ L; ?+ N! [
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For the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. "$ K, w! f6 }8 i! W, F
* {* I7 W `( i不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。 " T& a7 f" ~, { ; R" {5 e/ R( ~ zTwo years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. 9 o( U$ I/ P# P : |: K" }7 o" G% w M0 Z“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 & e; @6 I/ Z0 W' N# t. s - p" W' C4 _2 e, S( H0 A$ ~ {/ lLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."( O9 s' w5 d, s- ?