1 T: N8 @# r( n7 m+ G生命就是小甜饼： 6 }/ t. M: F1 T8 x7 MOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. ; T4 w# Q9 E/ f z6 l / R& N* _: d- F( G8 A* q我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 9 a7 C7 S& g3 O% Q$ l- b3 p& \( p6 _8 Y
If you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing.* v9 T4 U& C4 r4 D7 I
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如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 0 j; W5 q3 G' Y) ?0 E & ?6 C8 B; \8 bSome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address. * R9 x5 _( J. t1 d9 d; y* Y 4 f9 b( @3 f% u7 I; A不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。! f3 M$ G1 r1 {% G; [
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A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. ! P& f! ]0 F& b3 B: o/ {! R5 x " {; f. P6 I- S& o z' v在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。 3 Q' I& a; _/ j7 I3 G. X0 m, c6 I* v) J. f1 G
When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy." w9 \$ q; W" p1 }: i
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当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 / c; I" `1 n8 Y2 i* v1 r) l( J Z6 r, L( b5 [: m
But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long. & Q0 Y8 ?# {, N$ _ ) W, t3 O* t. e; {不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 " I; i! ^4 u' Q w7 K, C( G, C0 ^) S
The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you.! ]- S( W( l5 ?2 b! R& h) l* s
1 m) @$ J1 L1 n7 c从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 # e7 O& [/ c6 _8 a. c( r! T# x ! h$ l, {8 F7 p2 u5 JYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. $ R" a- f7 G# R* z
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为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 . `/ T: ]1 g' z; c' t1 @ 8 @3 f( {2 o$ N- N! ^3 `1 c; wYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. 1 V: g& \' N6 K2 g 1 T8 T7 s( @- u6 S你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。# \; Z: F" L p$ ]9 a3 m, o
* [* T2 e* j% q0 P0 QHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him. , [) s3 P$ R \: n W0 G4 T2 {$ L
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For the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. " $ y5 }& D& D% H" u! o( i* D& p3 D " s1 E) h( O) x0 V不论他的生意是否一帆风顺，不论他在打高尔夫球时是输是赢，他有生以来第一次感到幸福。9 n3 R5 H' d2 ~) @, k
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“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 5 Z4 M2 c" ?- E+ K* p8 E4 e: h # r+ n( W- X9 F* R- FLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."3 l! w( y9 i* A$ ]- Q% q- X
6 h% [ W) X) e生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。% J- C( p. K* B