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One of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good. + ~; }( j4 V) o5 B0 n7 W % V; l+ t) e# L) X7 R我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。1 B3 ?" h, ~( i6 [+ }
) s& ?) a% N- d; S# B4 |If you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. - T O) f4 D" m * x' M8 J1 G! N8 {7 I如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。" G" ?. z- Z' {& H& H: X+ V
) Y( u0 g0 j9 Q1 n# W, w0 D OSome of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address.! y9 C5 g# k* S' W# q
7 t2 R. D/ c' S8 r4 Q. z不幸的是，小甜饼总是不断变换着，有时是金钱，有时是权力，有时是欲望。在其他时候，它是一辆新车、一份数额最大的合同、或者一个享有声望的通讯地址。 4 ~, D0 u( x' V+ H9 @7 u. | 4 W) B0 J" L: |9 X' iA year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid. * v" k5 l8 @- B4 x9 P2 N+ l9 D$ a8 f! q! O
在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。- z' V% L0 m t+ W9 m& ]
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When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy.* k4 F( ^: f5 J4 t% Q
0 Q; F: h* }$ q- p. E: H当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。4 x( n1 A) G/ O3 y) I2 Z
6 w1 [; a: U2 S2 v9 ABut he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.1 J/ a6 Y8 d7 Z& o* ?1 ]3 G; m
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不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 $ E) q+ g+ z3 t* I: i+ h6 e) p2 ~; G9 {4 T$ S
The minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you. & X5 Q( ]8 `; W2 A' H$ b/ x J4 v5 B+ ?& a- m
从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 . o j! n& f; I " U. N* l% R. |0 WYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 7 d: g$ \; s* G" Z6 o) B2 M4 D- ^
为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 , U# l* `( R# s% J ' g) n$ T. C3 k2 XYou may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it.* O* l$ I! W0 c- N& `0 A& g
+ u2 b/ V7 g: f6 N/ H你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。* N! a9 o5 ]- I3 _' @$ S
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Having the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him.( A, b( O6 `7 b; K2 `
6 D @2 y4 J9 B6 h+ O1 x7 M拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。0 C) L- \, e5 ]
( Y/ r& V7 O+ S& p' W& ~; tFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. "* ~/ Z1 e2 U3 B" h ]8 Z$ d
; w+ s! B0 Q+ i) G7 V2 _Two years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. / U+ Y- v. f# Y1 @7 E3 e& {: a ?2 u8 L( S
“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。; m! u- b0 X- K8 x. k( c
' ?9 ?8 a( P/ O N; a! fLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie."7 I {8 W/ b6 b& g$ u' M