4 z0 q( E( p# M2 O( M& D' I }生命就是小甜饼： ) b6 S4 h+ ?- [5 N1 Z& pOne of my patients, a successful businessman, tells me that before his cancer he would become depressed unless things went a certain way. Happiness was "having the cookie." If you had the cookie, things were good.3 G1 y1 {5 q0 H5 [, E& t) `$ p7 p
- u: r( K+ q# h6 P+ x/ B我有一位病人，他是一个成功的商人，告诉我，在他患癌症之前，凡事如果没有确定下来他就忧心忡忡。对他而言，幸福是“拥有小甜饼”。 E' [- p8 r4 O2 ?) P* N 0 I5 E0 ]9 B1 g k3 RIf you didn't have the cookie, life wasn't worth a damn. Unfortunately, the cookie kept changing. 5 p* a& Z8 v) ?: U9 ~4 X6 \) y0 s/ {& H+ q, D6 {6 q
如果你拥有了小甜饼，一切都一帆风顺。如果你没有小甜饼，生活就一文不值。 ( T2 W8 N5 L3 c3 r, n" P, f8 a0 t
Some of the time it was money, sometimes power, sometimes sex. At other times, it was the new car, the biggest contract, the most prestigious address.6 b! ^- @ @6 d2 ?' E
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A year and a half after his diagnosis of prostate cancer he sits shaking his head ruefully. "It's like I stopped learning how to live after I was a kid.4 k- j6 W3 B0 l. {
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在他被诊断出患有前列腺癌的一年半之后，他坐在那里，悲天悯人地摇着头，说：“长大以后，我好像就不知道怎样生活了。! ]; i2 m+ \ W' J0 G
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When I give my son a cookie, he is happy. If I take the cookie away or it breaks, he is unhappy. 5 p8 C3 M' S/ H 4 N' S1 z7 K. Y5 o8 r7 d当我给我儿子一个小甜饼时，他心花怒放。如果我拿走甜饼或者是小甜饼碎了，他就闷闷不乐。 * W: r6 H4 O5 x8 v1 A$ S. ~# p9 e" m% E/ d* A( y
But he is two and a half and I am forty-three. It's taken me this long to understand that the cookie will never make me happy for long.; l" F7 D! P( m( {7 Q+ A6 m
8 L2 C) \& \1 ~- u不同的是，他只有两岁半，而我已经 43 了。我花了这么长的时间才明白小甜饼并不能使我长久感到幸福。 ! J0 L' @3 k) X! ? : K! @$ X. i1 L6 B* B- L4 WThe minute you have the cookie it starts to crumble or you start to worry about it crumbling or about someone trying to take it away from you.2 \& w5 q, M3 [, u0 ?+ W
* e1 l" K; E3 U, O从你拥有小甜饼的那一刻，它就开始破碎，或者你就开始担心它会破碎，抑或你开始担心别人拿走它。 , D0 b1 v# D" @1 W# h9 p) c 2 _0 v( w$ @# _6 b8 A: YYou know, you have to give up a lot of things to take care of the cookie, to keep it from crumbling and be sure that no one takes it away from you. 6 t9 X4 _2 I) Q. \) ?
: j4 J9 |: P" f5 x# ~为了守护你的小甜饼，为了防止它破碎或者确定别人不会从你手中夺走它，你不得不放弃许多东西。 0 Q4 s+ m. h2 z! j; Y" U) S. h8 `. H3 B' v& v
You may not even get a chance to eat it because you are so busy just trying not to lose it. - e2 y% S( \0 h7 J5 D! \* y& ^2 m' U4 A6 a( u* `: R
你忙于不让自己失去它，甚至没有时间享受它。 0 p; X# z. A: a. n1 G8 R# x ) N2 c) Q7 y1 r, _ K0 O* L3 cHaving the cookie is not what life is about." My patient laughs and says cancer has changed him.) h% Y5 B3 L1 s- j
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拥有小甜饼并不是生活的全部内容。”我的病人笑着说癌症已经改变了他。 2 E0 j5 h' w! e9 H * U4 C k: Y0 ]; e CFor the first time he is happy. No matter if his business is doing well or not, no matter if he wins or loses at golf. "- U- {5 ^' w# B; D: q
5 x& a, ^, b: o4 V% vTwo years ago, cancer asked me, 'Okay, what's important? What is really important?' Well, life is important. " U7 a3 Q! I4 B! N4 X5 g% n& O
“两年前，癌症问我‘什么重要?什么才真正的重要?’对，生命重要。 8 M0 g' n! A! u S7 E & g* Q* {" z' P! J' o9 A) DLife. Life any way you can have it, life with the cookie, life without the cookie. Happiness does not have anything to do with the cookie; it has to do with being alive. Before, who made the time?" He pauses thoughtfully. "Damn, I guess life is the cookie." / V& ~4 X- q; D 2 r5 e3 J2 m6 }) H) x+ {生命。生命，无论如何你拥有生命。有小甜饼也罢，没有小甜饼也罢，幸福与小甜饼并非息息相关，而是与生命的存在有关。可是，时光一去不复返，谁又能让时光倒流呢?”他停顿了一下，若有所思，说：“该死，我觉得生命就是那块小甜饼”。3 a9 Y8 l3 G$ X. o/ m, Z/ G